Children Overcoming Obstacles Unique Ministries


I thought I was broken.

“I am a worthless wife if I can’t give my husband children.” This is one of the lies I was tempted to believe as I experienced my second miscarriage followed by the news that I had both genetic and blood clotting disorders. Both would not only increase my chances for another miscarriage but could also lead to my carrying a baby with a severe life-ending syndrome. Feelings of anger, isolation, low esteem, guilt, and anxiety were considered normal by the specialists treating me but there was more at work here than just feelings.

I realized that there was a root cause, negative thoughts which, when left unchecked, led to actions. Each of these feelings gave rise to its own negative attitudes such as low self-esteem because of my body’s inability to have children. This is a basic process, normal for every woman: the ability to bear a child, yet I could not.

Another emotion I experienced was anger that was silently directed at God. After all, if He truly loved me and really was good, He wouldn’t have denied my longing to be a mother. Instead of taking these thoughts and emotions to God, I shared them with everyone else. While they listened sympathetically, there was nothing they could do to soothe my soul. I finally came to realize this truth when I was utterly exhausted from trying to deal with it all in my own way. After such a long, unfruitful season of attempting to handle it on my own, I poured out my heart to the One who had made me.

I laid every negative thought and heavy emotion before Him, and in the truth of His Word, they were vanquished. I realized that I was loved, I was not broken, and I was not alone. My faith grew as each of these truths took root in my heart and displaced the lies. Every time they attempt to creep back in, I take them to my loving, Heavenly Father who reminds me again of who He is and who I am in Him.

The lessons I learned through this journey formed the beginnings of a blog that has now grown into a book called My Miscarriage. My desire now is to help other women who are facing a similar season as I did. I want them to know that there is hope and, with God’s strength, they can overcome the pain, frustration, anger and hurt because He loves them with an everlasting love.

Know Someone We Should Feature? Click Here!

You Might Also Like

No Comments

Leave a Reply