At a very young age, my brother was very physically abusive to me to show off in front of his friends. My entire household was full of pride and ego. Nobody could ever admit they were wrong; there were always issues. There was never a family dinner without fighting, screaming and somebody walking out of the house!
I had at least 23 suicide attempts starting at the age of 11. The abuse was so great at my house that I was ordered to move out to avoid my brother being taken into juvenile detention.
I truly cried out to God!
I said, “If You’re real, I need You to come and save my life or I’m going to kill myself,” and I attempted to shoot up a gram of methamphetamines (which would kill you).
The following day, I ended up being arrested.
In jail, I was moved from every block for fighting and for my attitude. I ended up in solitary confinement, which is where I truly found God.
I remember crying to God and saying, “Please Lord, don’t leave me behind. I’ll do anything You ask me to do. Anything! Just don’t leave me behind.”
I heard His voice telling me to get down low. I went straight to the floor, crying, finally ready to submit everything and give up my own understanding. He said to draw a line. I opened my eyes and there was a piece of pencil lead right in front of my eyes. I drew a line across the floor.
I heard Him say to get up and step over it, so I did. Then I heard the voice of the Lord say, “Turn around and tell the enemy you’re done.” So I did, very loudly and very intentionally. I started naming off all of the things that I was denouncing.
Sexual immorality. Pride. Hatred. Anger. Suicide. Depression.
They early terminated me because I was following the way of the Lord, and He made a way where there seemed to be no way.
Since then, I have led worship for 5 1/2 years. I have been the head of an evangelism team. I have gone to detox facilities in jails to preach the Word of God and give encouragement to those who are lost.
I have spent every single day talking about the way God has saved my life, and letting everybody know that He’ll do the same for them!
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