GOD SAVED ME FROM DESTRUCTION

My biological dad suffered from severe alcoholism. He was decapitated by an Amtrak train when I was 11 years old.

I grew up with a verbally, physically and mentally abusive stepdad. My family struggled with poverty, food insecurity and shelter.

I was sexually molested and raped by multiple perpetrators for several years beginning when I was only 4. At 19, I was raped and left in a field.

By age 21, I was married and pregnant. I suffered from anxiety, depression and suicidal ideation.

At 24, I learned the baby boy I was carrying had died. I carried my dead son in my womb for nine days.

I spent time in mental hospitals. I went to therapy. I was prescribed the anxiety medication Xanax, then later Klonopin. I abused alcohol, nicotine, pills and marijuana throughout my life.

I was divorced multiple times. A back injury spiraled me into a narcotics addiction that led to a methamphetamine addiction. I was a junkie. I prostituted for drugs.

At age 44, I was being evicted from my apartment. I had no phone, no car, and no friends. My family had stopped speaking to me. I was lost and broken. I fell through the floor of rock bottom and knocked on the gates of hell. I had nothing to live for.

I decided to commit suicide, but God intervened.

I went from belief in Jesus to surrender to Christ, born again, and dying unto myself. Jesus miraculously and instantly healed me from depression, addiction, and suicidal ideation.

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” (2 Corinthians 5:17)

I wanted to share my story so I wrote a book, a detailed account of my abusive childhood, struggle with depression, journey into drug addiction, and the miraculous healing Jesus performed, where He broke the chains of depression and addiction that ruled my life.

I have been actively involved in Celebrate Recovery, using my testimony to inspire and impact others to know that Jesus heals, redeems and sets captives free. My story is not my own. It’s God’s story and He gets all of the glory!