During my season of greatest brokenness following a devastating divorce, I put up so many walls as my own personal protective mechanism. I experienced rejection and abuse coupled with the exposure of my ex’s unfaithfulness. So much trust had been broken that I didn’t ever think I could let anyone get close to me again.
I remember countless nights of crying myself to sleep, wishing the pain would dissipate. I remember feeling numb inside, forgetting what it’s like to simply feel anything at all. I remember wanting to learn to live again, but being unsure how to get from where I was to where I desired to be.
I desired to be healed and whole again. I would sit with the Lord for hours in worship and saturate myself in His Word. During a time when I was unable to let anyone else in, He broke through the iron-clad walls erected around my heart and loved me in a way that I had never known before.
Isaiah 61 tells us that one of the many reasons Jesus came was to ‘heal the brokenhearted’. As I have journeyed through life after divorce, He has proven His love to me and healed me in such a way that when I share my story, I sometimes feel like I’m talking about someone else.
Not only did the Lord heal my broken heart, He restored my hope and led me to begin praying for my future husband long before I met him.
During my eight years of singleness, I would pray faithfully. I would write him letters via email with the intention of one day giving him the password. I believed that, when the time was right, God would bring someone into my life who would love me like Christ loves the church, be faithful to our covenant, and serve the Lord with gladness hand-in-hand with me.
The Lord spoke many words to my heart during my single season, and He faithfully fulfilled every one of them.
I met my husband and we married exactly three months later.
There are so many details to our love story, and our heart is to give others hope that when we let God author our lives, He writes the very best love stories, better than any Hallmark movie or Nicholas Sparks book could dream up!
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